7 Things x 2012

My seven answers to the Day Zero alternative New Year's resolutions poll:

1. Learn how to take better photographs of the collection
2. Start eating better, in order to get down to my target weight
3. Stop biting my nails
4. Take a vacation to anywhere, as long as I have my family and friends with me
5. Find cheap storage for the collection and for the huge amount of toys AJ has amassed
6. Try to spend at least £25 a month on myself
7. Be more attentive with my appearance

My weight (want to lose weight).
My skin (want it to be flawless).
My dress sense (want to be less lazy).
My makeup (want to do it everyday).
My hair (same as makeup).
My nails (want to stop biting).
My teeth (want them to be whiter).

1. Be single.
2. Be unhappy in love.
3. Live in a completely messy house.
4. Trust people too easily.
5. Go to a shit tattooist.
6. Not be able to handle my money.
7. Buy things without first telling Allan.
8. Pass up a great deal on a game/DVD, etc.

How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
- I'd say I was about 18, young, up for a laugh, but mature at the same time.

Which is worse, failing or never trying?
- Definitely never trying, 'cause if you don't try, you'll never know if you could hve succeeded, and THAT is a true fail.

If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
- Because we don’t appreciate life until it is too late, so everyone should learn a lesson from past generations, to live in the moment and love everything that you do. Don’t waste time doing things you hate, ‘cause at the end, it won’t have been worth it.

When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Hopefully not, but chances are, that yes, I will have. But here’s hoping that I don’t.

What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
To be honest, I’m not sure, as any change could cause huge ramifications further down the line, but if it weren’t to cause problems, then I’d choose to make everyone less greedy, and happy with what they have, as it is the whole throwaway culture we live in, needing things now, and fast, then throwing them away when we are fed up of them, that is causing the worlds problems, such as global warming, etc.

If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
Being a wife and mother.

Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
Doing what I believe in as a mother, but settling for now as there is still so much I want to do, but I want to make the most of the time I have with my son whilst he is still young. I have the rest of my life for dreams.

If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
I wouldn’t live it differently, other than to put more money away for my son so he can enjoy life more.

To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
Pretty much the entire course, not much I have done in life has been outwith my control.

Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
Doing the right things, I don’t care if I do things, but do them wrong, it’s all the process of learning, but I’d rather do the right things wrong, than the wrong things right, if you understand what I’m saying.

You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
Stick up for her/him, of course - as I’d expect them to do if they were in my shoes.

If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
To love. The one thing I dread is my son becoming one of those “man-whorish” teenage neddy boys that you get, I’d much rather he was a lover, and faithful to one girl, than sleeping around with a bunch of different girls. As I’d lose a bit of my respect for him.
Would you break the law to save a loved one?
Of course.

Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
Sometimes when you look at something, your first instinct is “that’s crazy” thinking it’s not too appealing, but after giving it some thought, you realise it has deeper meaning, etc - so yes.

What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
Think.

How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
Everyone has different opinions on things, and different tastes, therefore different keys to happiness.

What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
Go to University - having my son, as I want to cherish my time with him whilst he is a baby, so I have no problem with waiting a few years to go to Uni.

Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
Not really.

If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
Japan, as I love their culture and plan on moving there for 6 months anyway in the future to experience it first hand.

Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
Yes, and no. I push it more than once as I am an impatient fucker, but no, I know it won’t make it come faster.

Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
A worried genius, as I am ;).

Why are you, you?
Because of everything I have experienced in life.

Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
Not always, in the past, but I’d like to say, I am now.

Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
Losing touch, it’s heartbreaking knowing you are so close, yet so far.

What are you most grateful for?
My family and my health.

Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
Lose all of my old memories, as I have photos, and it has only been 19 years worth, and as much as I’d hate to lose the memory of the first year of my son’s life, I’d hate to never have the memories of his entire life after that.

Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
Yes.

Has your greatest fear ever come true?
No, and I hope it never does.

Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
After five years, you lose rationality of things that upset you at the time, so no. Unless it is due to a death, etc, then of course it matters, but that’s not really what we’re talking about here.

What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
Being with my uncle Jim, as those are memories I’ll sadly never be able to recreate.

At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
Now.

If not now, then when?
N/a.

If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
Nothing.

Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
Yes, everyday with Allan and our son, we needn’t say anything to each other, but I still feel so loved and alive in their presence.

Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
Because when somebody loves a God that they believe in, and somebody questions, or denies the existence of that particular God, of course you’d be upset, therefore retaliating, causing a religious war.

Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
No, as evil always begins as good, so it’s hard to tell where the line between them is.

If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
Well it’d be pounds here, and no, I’d rather still work for a living, even with all that money, as I’d still want a feeling of self worth, and not slob out in my mansion haha.

Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
More work I enjoy doing.

Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
Partially, yes, as I’ve been with my son all day, but it’s a day I’d gladly live a hundred times more.

When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
Not recently, but I hope to get some inspiration to do something worthwhile soon.

If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
My family and friends, then spend the remaining hours alone, cherishing time with Allan and our son, having fun till the end.

Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
No, I’d rather be unknown and ugly, and live a long, happy life, than attractive and famous, but depressed and alone in the constant spotlight of the media.

What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
Being alive, anybody can do that, but truly living? That takes effort.

When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
When you realise you have nothing to lose.

If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
Because we are afraid of the outcome of our mistakes, only after making the mistake do we know what the outcome was, and can learn from it, but beforehand, you have no idea if it is going to be a HUGE mistake, or just a little one.

What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
Nothing.

When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
Last night, lying in bed.

What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
My boyfriend and our son, and yes.

In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
Probably not exactly, but I will remember things that have impacted my life.

Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
- Making them for myself, never let others make the decisions for me.

Starting in December/January, and every month where possible. Money saved should not be dipped into unless absolutely necessary, unless for preorders at the end of each year.

Already paid for domain and hosting, but website isn't awesome yet so can't be classed as 'done'.

Start on AJ's first birthday, do with him too.